So….its been well over a year since I wrote a post, but I am going to start posting more blogs and keep it updated as much as possible. So, over the past year and a half, a lot has happened. So, a lot has to do with the major changes in my life. Three major changes would be 1. Weight loss 2. Divorce 3. Job Change, and a few other changes that have affected my life. So I will talk about each of those then talk about the few other things.
Weight loss….So I would have to say that in all my life, even though I have been a bigger girl, I have never felt like…I was fat. It wasn’t until someone I loved and trusted said to me “ I feel like your gaining weight”. It hurt, mostly because I felt judged according to my weight, not for who I was. Lets get this straight…I know I have always been a bigger girl, however I had never felt FAT until then. So, for the first time in my life I felt like I needed to loose weight for someone else. So for a while I was trying to loose weight and nothing worked. A few months into it I decided I needed to loose weight to be healthy, not to be thin…There is a difference. I knew I wanted a baby, but I needed to be healthier to have a baby. So this motivated me and I began to loose weight. I started working out and eating healthier. This all began about the end of August 2010 and it is now December 2011. I have lost about 80 pounds and I feel so much better. I want to loose about another 40 and I will be at a good weight to start working on having a baby. I feel healthier and I am seeing results, but it was a long time coming. It is true what people say..it is HARDER to take it off then it is to put it on! LOL, but worth it.
Divorce…..how I hate this word…I really am not going to go into detail how this all went about, but Abraham and I got a divorce and it was final in July 2011. I do not think there will ever be a time that I will ever stop wishing this could have worked, or hoping that one day, it could still work. However, it is what it is and I can not change it. I love Abraham for the person he is and the person he has helped me become. I would not change ever having met him. He is a good person, and I know for a while things were just so tense when anyone mentioned his name around me…but it is ok now. We have talked and spent time together and we know we love each other, but right now it needs to be what it is. I am grateful for the support I got from my family and friends.
I will write about the other stuff later, gotta go..
